Wake up( from sleeping on the floor) 5.45am
Went to sleep on bed
wake up(9 am)
meditate
shit
bathe
breakfast
chat with mum and bro
chanting with mum
do jap HW, msn
Lunch
do jap HW
do bdae card for fren (2pm)
finish card(4.15pm)
go out, table in a mess(4.30)
tried to take cab, all the cabs changing duty, no one wants to pick me
take bus 28(4.55)
arrive at PL station take train to Bugis(5.20)
Buy Vege cake and back to station(5.27)
take train to Outram Park station(5.38)
go up Evergreen buy books and leave for chinatown(5.58)
walk to chinatown station
reach chinatown station(6.08)
find a floor and started wrapping gift
wrapped gift went to find them below(6.13)
found them, supposed to have met the non bdae ppl at 5.45 and birthday girl at 6 (6.15)
went to vege restaurant to eat, was quite nice
left for home(9.40)
reached home (10.10)
relax; read book ; pack table
bathe(11.00)
online(11.10)
blogging and msn(11.20)
now(11.45)
Friday, March 21, 2008
Monday, March 3, 2008
Some clarification
Hi guys, thanks for asking how I am. I am really fine. Flu recovered almost on that day itself and I am not sad. Hahaha. Just spread a little too thin I guess. But it is no problem, when we put everything together and think, things become very many and heavy, but actually if you just do it one at a time, then there is really nothing to worry about or be stressed about or be distressed about. Nothing much at all, totally created by the mind itself. The mind playing tricks on itself, thinking of things to stress itself and make life more difficualt for itself. So pls do not punish yourself by doing that. Haha! And please do not worry about me :-) Looks like the readership of my blog is not bad! Haha!
Ok, the last time i asked my Zen teacher how we should practice 无 or Mu(in zen language or japanese language) during my interview. He taught us that when sitting in meditation, after breathing in, when breathing out, accompany it with Muuuuuuuu.
I knew from the stories that traditionally, the practice of Mu would have to permeate every facet of your life and every pore of your being. So I asked him how should we practice Mu in school during lecture. He replied that when in lecture then listen to the lecture and dun think about Mu. But when I am not doing anything in particular, like walking from place to place, then I should engage in the practice of Mu in such a way: eg, when walking, then every step, mu, mu, mu, mu. All the while with attention based in the hara(jap) or 丹田dantian(chinese). Then slowly the practice of Mu will be become a habit and our energy centre will be strong even if we cannot yet break through this barrier of Mu. He says slowly, everything will just be Muu.. He says that, the huatou Mu, is a very important barrier in Zen and if you pass it, many koans 公案 will be easy.
If anything comes along, he says MU will be like a Diamond Sabre, cutting thru everything(exactly like what the Mumon said in the commentary of the koan collection Mumonkan) Yup, so continue working on Muuuuu...
Ok, the last time i asked my Zen teacher how we should practice 无 or Mu(in zen language or japanese language) during my interview. He taught us that when sitting in meditation, after breathing in, when breathing out, accompany it with Muuuuuuuu.
I knew from the stories that traditionally, the practice of Mu would have to permeate every facet of your life and every pore of your being. So I asked him how should we practice Mu in school during lecture. He replied that when in lecture then listen to the lecture and dun think about Mu. But when I am not doing anything in particular, like walking from place to place, then I should engage in the practice of Mu in such a way: eg, when walking, then every step, mu, mu, mu, mu. All the while with attention based in the hara(jap) or 丹田dantian(chinese). Then slowly the practice of Mu will be become a habit and our energy centre will be strong even if we cannot yet break through this barrier of Mu. He says slowly, everything will just be Muu.. He says that, the huatou Mu, is a very important barrier in Zen and if you pass it, many koans 公案 will be easy.
If anything comes along, he says MU will be like a Diamond Sabre, cutting thru everything(exactly like what the Mumon said in the commentary of the koan collection Mumonkan) Yup, so continue working on Muuuuu...
Saturday, March 1, 2008
The sky is clear again
Dunno what was happening the last few weeks. Anyhow, I felt terrible yesterday and tdy. Felt terrible as in there is this hidden pek cekness behind my mind. Yesterday, i caught this terrible flu(dunno from where) and when I blew nose, my mucus was transparent yellow. Something i have never in my life seen before. Usually it is not transparent. Yesterday's was like jelly. And I cried the most in many many many years. Just kept on tearing until my eyes were swollen. Now I know how terrible it is for this good fren of mine to cry till her eyes swollen and how much she must have cried and how sad she must have been to cry so much but that is another thing.
Anyway, my another good fren, J, saved the day by giving me a yellow flu tablet and provided me a place to sleep. I actually could not sleep but just lay there for like 1 plus hour or was it 2 hrs? I dun know. Anyway, after I got up it was better but my right eye was still super swollen. Like kena punched like that. Really jialat man, had to cancel my movie trip...
The pek chekness.....i think it was a sort of accumulated mental baggage (烦恼), like everything is not going well, studies no where, cca also no where, many problems. Although I am usually still rather carefree, I think they do leave a stain on my mind still and the stain accumulated. So i think i became more irritable too. Sorry anyone i offended. Even my morning meditation was terrible. I could not concentrate properly the last few mornings too.
HOWEVER, all these changed when i went back to Kwan Yin Chan Lin for the last lesson of my Zen Course just now!(and i am not advertising for them or anything) I have totally no idea what happened. All I know is that i went there, sat meditation, legs pain and all, first time legs numb, maybe because i tried a new position. I happened to sit facing a pillar with words on it and i happened to be sitting and looking at the word 白on it and kept staring at the word, as zen meditates with eyes open. Eyes refused to look down to the ground, so i gave up. The word disappeared and and appeared again, and transformed into many things. Concentrate on the dan tian, thoughts flying around and around and around and around and around. What is WU??? this that this that blah blah blah.
In the end, we still could not get the answer for what is WU. But somehow or rather, coming out of the zen centre, havin meditated for the last few hours, I felt totally refreshed feeling like all the baggage that i have been bringing along was gone and i felt so happy. Just so carefree again. It is simply amazing!! Ok my eyes still hurt and I still have my tutorials to do. But no problem, now is time to sleep, tmr have to go for escape theme park outing, I'll try to do my work still and try to run earlier from the theme park outing.
Yeap! Jiayou guys!!! By the way, now i am advertising: Kwan Yin Chan Lin is buying a new premises and builing a new zen centre and they are looking for donations so if you would like to donate to a good cause, here is a good way to invest a money.
Anyway, my another good fren, J, saved the day by giving me a yellow flu tablet and provided me a place to sleep. I actually could not sleep but just lay there for like 1 plus hour or was it 2 hrs? I dun know. Anyway, after I got up it was better but my right eye was still super swollen. Like kena punched like that. Really jialat man, had to cancel my movie trip...
The pek chekness.....i think it was a sort of accumulated mental baggage (烦恼), like everything is not going well, studies no where, cca also no where, many problems. Although I am usually still rather carefree, I think they do leave a stain on my mind still and the stain accumulated. So i think i became more irritable too. Sorry anyone i offended. Even my morning meditation was terrible. I could not concentrate properly the last few mornings too.
HOWEVER, all these changed when i went back to Kwan Yin Chan Lin for the last lesson of my Zen Course just now!(and i am not advertising for them or anything) I have totally no idea what happened. All I know is that i went there, sat meditation, legs pain and all, first time legs numb, maybe because i tried a new position. I happened to sit facing a pillar with words on it and i happened to be sitting and looking at the word 白on it and kept staring at the word, as zen meditates with eyes open. Eyes refused to look down to the ground, so i gave up. The word disappeared and and appeared again, and transformed into many things. Concentrate on the dan tian, thoughts flying around and around and around and around and around. What is WU??? this that this that blah blah blah.
In the end, we still could not get the answer for what is WU. But somehow or rather, coming out of the zen centre, havin meditated for the last few hours, I felt totally refreshed feeling like all the baggage that i have been bringing along was gone and i felt so happy. Just so carefree again. It is simply amazing!! Ok my eyes still hurt and I still have my tutorials to do. But no problem, now is time to sleep, tmr have to go for escape theme park outing, I'll try to do my work still and try to run earlier from the theme park outing.
Yeap! Jiayou guys!!! By the way, now i am advertising: Kwan Yin Chan Lin is buying a new premises and builing a new zen centre and they are looking for donations so if you would like to donate to a good cause, here is a good way to invest a money.
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